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Post by cr33pych4n on Dec 3, 2020 23:45:57 GMT
A while back, before I got a phone, I read an article about a woman switching from a smartphone to a Nokia brick. She claimed it was the best decision she ever made, that she was so much happier without social media. I don't know why, but that always stuck with me.
I got my first phone in 2015 from my brother. Since then, the longest I have been separated from my phone has been about 4 days when I lost it on a school trip. And with quarantine, I have been using it basically 24/7.
This has taken its toll on me. My attention span is way shorter, I am less creative, more lazy. I haven't been feeling so good lately.
So.... I'm going to get rid of it!
Not permanently of course, but I just need time to detach myself from it. When I was a kid, we had one of those really old computers. I think we must have had it from 2004, but I was only allowed on it when I turned 6 in 2006. And even then, I had to share with my brothers. I have decided to allow myself computer time so I don't go entirely loopy, but I will be sure to cut this down too.
I love the 2000s mainly for its fashion and music, but I believe it can help with mental health too! So, as the title says, I am going back to how things were when I was a kid. I will let you know how it goes.
TL;DR: Social media is depressing, I'm going to live like it's 2006 as a result <3
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Post by cr33pych4n on Dec 3, 2020 23:46:30 GMT
Also, sorry if this is the type of thread that doesn't really belong here... feel free to delete!
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Post by melissa <3 on Dec 4, 2020 1:25:12 GMT
omg no this post is great - anything (as long as it isn't inappropriate or harmful to anyone) is more than welcome here!!!
also i def know what you're talking about - smartphones are something that I think have a really profound affect on our mentalities, more than we sometimes realize or want to admit. I always think about how before my first iPhone (which i got when i was 15), my attention span was so much stronger; I could write stories and read for hours!
Fast forward to me now going on 8 years of having iPhones, and I really miss how much more focused I used to be. We've become so accustom to everything being lightning fast and always having a distraction, it's kind of crazy to think about, especially because this has all evolved so fast. Part of the reason I (and I think Mia to some degree too) have such a love for the 2000s and wanted to make the zine and now this site was because I missed how tech used to feel like one exciting aspect of life, but it wasn't all of my life either.
Granted, social apps like Tik Tok have helped us reach a lot of ppl about this site, so there are cool things about what we have now! But overall, I think having so much constantly going on virtually is a lot for our brains to take, so I think it's great that you're gonna try to limit or change ur usage!
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Post by Xx mia xX on Dec 4, 2020 2:45:08 GMT
This type of thread is totally okay, we really care about how u are feeling!
I totally agree and I know a lot of my friends do too, social media and constantly being plugged in can be really exhausting. I think about switching to a flip phone every single day but I feel like I need to be plugged in to run Youth Culture and keep up socially and for the brand.
Things are way different now than they used to be and they're only going to get more internet-centric but I think it's really great that you're recognizing its impact on you and trying to do something about it! Pretty much every kid in our generation is addicted to their phone and we need to be aware of that! Finding balance is really crucial and i am definitely still figuring that out but thank you for being so honest about your experience. I hope it goes well for you, it's not easy but will be worth it!
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Post by Xx mia xX on Dec 4, 2020 2:46:59 GMT
also hopefully this site can be a healthier outlet for you and others to use, that's what we wanted from the beginning!
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Post by xxfalloutboisxx on Dec 4, 2020 3:20:01 GMT
</div></div> bro I feel that effect on our mentalities. I've been on tumblr literally since I was about 7 or 8 and I've been publicly "cancelled" for stupid stuff about 4 times before straight up just backing away almost completely. I've since been diagnosed with PTSD from it and I genuinely dislike most social media sites.
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Post by bioproject on Dec 4, 2020 3:23:46 GMT
A while back, before I got a phone, I read an article about a woman switching from a smartphone to a Nokia brick. She claimed it was the best decision she ever made, that she was so much happier without social media. I don't know why, but that always stuck with me. I got my first phone in 2015 from my brother. Since then, the longest I have been separated from my phone has been about 4 days when I lost it on a school trip. And with quarantine, I have been using it basically 24/7. This has taken its toll on me. My attention span is way shorter, I am less creative, more lazy. I haven't been feeling so good lately. So.... I'm going to get rid of it! Not permanently of course, but I just need time to detach myself from it. When I was a kid, we had one of those really old computers. I think we must have had it from 2004, but I was only allowed on it when I turned 6 in 2006. And even then, I had to share with my brothers. I have decided to allow myself computer time so I don't go entirely loopy, but I will be sure to cut this down too. I love the 2000s mainly for its fashion and music, but I believe it can help with mental health too! So, as the title says, I am going back to how things were when I was a kid. I will let you know how it goes.
TL;DR: Social media is depressing, I'm going to live like it's 2006 as a result <3
I am close to Cal Newports age I remember back when you had to be from an Ivy League to get Social media Account. I am mid 30's but I remember a time back in the 2000's the depressing events of the time would be the Iraq War, Afghanistan war and 9/11 they were the worst events prior to the COVID-19 fallout of today.
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Post by cr33pych4n on Dec 4, 2020 11:52:06 GMT
A while back, before I got a phone, I read an article about a woman switching from a smartphone to a Nokia brick. She claimed it was the best decision she ever made, that she was so much happier without social media. I don't know why, but that always stuck with me. I got my first phone in 2015 from my brother. Since then, the longest I have been separated from my phone has been about 4 days when I lost it on a school trip. And with quarantine, I have been using it basically 24/7. This has taken its toll on me. My attention span is way shorter, I am less creative, more lazy. I haven't been feeling so good lately. So.... I'm going to get rid of it! Not permanently of course, but I just need time to detach myself from it. When I was a kid, we had one of those really old computers. I think we must have had it from 2004, but I was only allowed on it when I turned 6 in 2006. And even then, I had to share with my brothers. I have decided to allow myself computer time so I don't go entirely loopy, but I will be sure to cut this down too. I love the 2000s mainly for its fashion and music, but I believe it can help with mental health too! So, as the title says, I am going back to how things were when I was a kid. I will let you know how it goes.
TL;DR: Social media is depressing, I'm going to live like it's 2006 as a result <3
I am close to Cal Newports age I remember back when you had to be from an Ivy League to get Social media Account. I am mid 30's but I remember a time back in the 2000's the depressing events of the time would be the Iraq War, Afghanistan war and 9/11 they were the worst events prior to the COVID-19 fallout of today.
Thank you for the video, very informative! This year has been depressing enough, so I think stepping back from social media and my phone will be good. |
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Post by cr33pych4n on Dec 4, 2020 11:55:34 GMT
</div>Thank you, you summed it up better than I ever could! |
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Post by cr33pych4n on Dec 4, 2020 11:57:33 GMT
This type of thread is totally okay, we really care about how u are feeling! I totally agree and I know a lot of my friends do too, social media and constantly being plugged in can be really exhausting. I think about switching to a flip phone every single day but I feel like I need to be plugged in to run Youth Culture and keep up socially and for the brand. Things are way different now than they used to be and they're only going to get more internet-centric but I think it's really great that you're recognizing its impact on you and trying to do something about it! Pretty much every kid in our generation is addicted to their phone and we need to be aware of that! Finding balance is really crucial and i am definitely still figuring that out but thank you for being so honest about your experience. I hope it goes well for you, it's not easy but will be worth it! Thank you so much! Also, I totally get it in regards to advertising Youth Culture with Melissa. Keep fighting the good fight! I am really going to enjoy seeing this site grow  |
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Post by cr33pych4n on Dec 4, 2020 12:00:16 GMT
</div>Wow, I'm so sorry about the cancel stuff :/ I used tumblr when I was around your age, and it is very toxic in that sense. In fact, I've noticed history repeating itself on other apps such as Tik Tok, so it's probably the right time to be stepping back. I'm glad that as a society we have grown to be more progressive, but it has been going too far in some instances. |
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Post by xxfalloutboisxx on Dec 4, 2020 13:22:35 GMT
Wow, I'm so sorry about the cancel stuff :/ I used tumblr when I was around your age, and it is very toxic in that sense. In fact, I've noticed history repeating itself on other apps such as Tik Tok, so it's probably the right time to be stepping back. I'm glad that as a society we have grown to be more progressive, but it has been going too far in some instances.
And I def agree with that last point. When I joined tumblr, activism really wasn't that big a deal and I'm so glad that and things like that have progressed, but there is a point where it becomes too much. I shouldn't have had my life threatened because I said I left my trans ex because he was emotionally abusive. I was called transphobic for that lol. Honestly if we could go back to the political and social climate of 2014-2015, I think things would be a lot better. Just factory reset to then and build off what we had then. |
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Post by cinderpeach on Dec 5, 2020 2:47:12 GMT
I feel like its not only just smartphones but modern Social Media as a whole, I've had a smart phone since 6th grade, but didn't start using social media (e.i Twitter,Insta, etc) until senior year, I've felt like that's really taken a toll on my mental health, like before joining modern social media my mind was mostly filled with long-running detailed daydreams (I'm an Immserive Daydreamer btw), and I could read a whole book with like in a day, or just sit enjoy a video game or a show and get really wrapped in the world it presented, but now, more often than not my mind is filled with thinking about what other people are up to, or what others are doing, if I'm doing something wrong, or would people think I'm cool for playing/watching/reading this piece of media , does this piece of media have a toxic fan base that should know about--do I have to be careful about saying that I'm a fan of________in fear of being lumped in with a bad crew or am I missing out on like a big event or something..
This also has taken a toll on my art too, like I used to just post stuff on DA (just for the fun of it not really caring about likes or anything), but posting my art on places like Twitter or Insta makes feel bad about it not getting a bunch of likes or not having a bunch of followers, and that makes me weary about even making stuff..like oof, man.
There been days where I don't do anything except just mindlessly binge random youtube vids because I feel like doing anything else would just be a big mistake, because of this I've been trying to limit my social media usage as well, and try to do other things than watching YT or mindlessly scrolling through insta or tiktok, and just trying to talk to more like-minded creatives like the people on here and some discord servers... (I still check Insta and Twitter to check on the cool people I've met on there)
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Post by xxfalloutboisxx on Dec 5, 2020 9:15:37 GMT
I feel like its not only just smartphones but modern Social Media as a whole, I've had a smart phone since 6th grade, but didn't start using social media (e.i Twitter,Insta, etc) until senior year, I've felt like that's really taken a toll on my mental health, like before joining modern social media my mind was mostly filled with long-running detailed daydreams (I'm an Immserive Daydreamer btw), and I could read a whole book with like in a day, or just sit enjoy a video game or a show and get really wrapped in the world it presented, but now, more often than not my mind is filled with thinking about what other people are up to, or what others are doing, if I'm doing something wrong, or would people think I'm cool for playing/watching/reading this piece of media , does this piece of media have a toxic fan base that should know about--do I have to be careful about saying that I'm a fan of________in fear of being lumped in with a bad crew or am I missing out on like a big event or something.. This also has taken a toll on my art too, like I used to just post stuff on DA (just for the fun of it not really caring about likes or anything), but posting my art on places like Twitter or Insta makes feel bad about it not getting a bunch of likes or not having a bunch of followers, and that makes me weary about even making stuff..like oof, man. There been days where I don't do anything except just mindlessly binge random youtube vids because I feel like doing anything else would just be a big mistake, because of this I've been trying to limit my social media usage as well, and try to do other things than watching YT or mindlessly scrolling through insta or tiktok, and just trying to talk to more like-minded creatives like the people on here and some discord servers... (I still check Insta and Twitter to check on the cool people I've met on there) |
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Post by cr33pych4n on Dec 5, 2020 13:37:55 GMT
I feel like its not only just smartphones but modern Social Media as a whole, I've had a smart phone since 6th grade, but didn't start using social media (e.i Twitter,Insta, etc) until senior year, I've felt like that's really taken a toll on my mental health, like before joining modern social media my mind was mostly filled with long-running detailed daydreams (I'm an Immserive Daydreamer btw), and I could read a whole book with like in a day, or just sit enjoy a video game or a show and get really wrapped in the world it presented, but now, more often than not my mind is filled with thinking about what other people are up to, or what others are doing, if I'm doing something wrong, or would people think I'm cool for playing/watching/reading this piece of media , does this piece of media have a toxic fan base that should know about--do I have to be careful about saying that I'm a fan of________in fear of being lumped in with a bad crew or am I missing out on like a big event or something.. This also has taken a toll on my art too, like I used to just post stuff on DA (just for the fun of it not really caring about likes or anything), but posting my art on places like Twitter or Insta makes feel bad about it not getting a bunch of likes or not having a bunch of followers, and that makes me weary about even making stuff..like oof, man. There been days where I don't do anything except just mindlessly binge random youtube vids because I feel like doing anything else would just be a big mistake, because of this I've been trying to limit my social media usage as well, and try to do other things than watching YT or mindlessly scrolling through insta or tiktok, and just trying to talk to more like-minded creatives like the people on here and some discord servers... (I still check Insta and Twitter to check on the cool people I've met on there) I know what you mean! I think for me, computer time is easier to get away from, whereas smartphones just follow you everywhere. I mean, I'm less likely to take a laptop into the bathroom! I agree though, modern social media is just crazy to experience. Personally, I only use it on my phone, whereas my computer is for stuff like forums and googling lol. I hope you feel better limiting! |
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Post by cinderpeach on Dec 5, 2020 14:24:30 GMT
I feel like its not only just smartphones but modern Social Media as a whole, I've had a smart phone since 6th grade, but didn't start using social media (e.i Twitter,Insta, etc) until senior year, I've felt like that's really taken a toll on my mental health, like before joining modern social media my mind was mostly filled with long-running detailed daydreams (I'm an Immserive Daydreamer btw), and I could read a whole book with like in a day, or just sit enjoy a video game or a show and get really wrapped in the world it presented, but now, more often than not my mind is filled with thinking about what other people are up to, or what others are doing, if I'm doing something wrong, or would people think I'm cool for playing/watching/reading this piece of media , does this piece of media have a toxic fan base that should know about--do I have to be careful about saying that I'm a fan of________in fear of being lumped in with a bad crew or am I missing out on like a big event or something.. This also has taken a toll on my art too, like I used to just post stuff on DA (just for the fun of it not really caring about likes or anything), but posting my art on places like Twitter or Insta makes feel bad about it not getting a bunch of likes or not having a bunch of followers, and that makes me weary about even making stuff..like oof, man. There been days where I don't do anything except just mindlessly binge random youtube vids because I feel like doing anything else would just be a big mistake, because of this I've been trying to limit my social media usage as well, and try to do other things than watching YT or mindlessly scrolling through insta or tiktok, and just trying to talk to more like-minded creatives like the people on here and some discord servers... (I still check Insta and Twitter to check on the cool people I've met on there) I know what you mean! I think for me, computer time is easier to get away from, whereas smartphones just follow you everywhere. I mean, I'm less likely to take a laptop into the bathroom! I agree though, modern social media is just crazy to experience. Personally, I only use it on my phone, whereas my computer is for stuff like forums and googling lol. I hope you feel better limiting! Exactly, thank you |
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Post by cinderpeach on Dec 5, 2020 15:56:59 GMT
I feel like its not only just smartphones but modern Social Media as a whole, I've had a smart phone since 6th grade, but didn't start using social media (e.i Twitter,Insta, etc) until senior year, I've felt like that's really taken a toll on my mental health, like before joining modern social media my mind was mostly filled with long-running detailed daydreams (I'm an Immserive Daydreamer btw), and I could read a whole book with like in a day, or just sit enjoy a video game or a show and get really wrapped in the world it presented, but now, more often than not my mind is filled with thinking about what other people are up to, or what others are doing, if I'm doing something wrong, or would people think I'm cool for playing/watching/reading this piece of media , does this piece of media have a toxic fan base that should know about--do I have to be careful about saying that I'm a fan of________in fear of being lumped in with a bad crew or am I missing out on like a big event or something.. This also has taken a toll on my art too, like I used to just post stuff on DA (just for the fun of it not really caring about likes or anything), but posting my art on places like Twitter or Insta makes feel bad about it not getting a bunch of likes or not having a bunch of followers, and that makes me weary about even making stuff..like oof, man. There been days where I don't do anything except just mindlessly binge random youtube vids because I feel like doing anything else would just be a big mistake, because of this I've been trying to limit my social media usage as well, and try to do other things than watching YT or mindlessly scrolling through insta or tiktok, and just trying to talk to more like-minded creatives like the people on here and some discord servers... (I still check Insta and Twitter to check on the cool people I've met on there) It's like MaDD but I have more control over my daydreams and they don't really negatively impact my life too much, but if I'm not careful it COULD turn into MaDD. (also its cool to meet another Neuronarrator ) |
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Post by xxfalloutboisxx on Dec 5, 2020 17:14:22 GMT
What's an immersive daydreamer? I'm a maladaptive daydreamer and I physically act out a lot of my daydreams as they happen. I've never met anyone else like that. It's like MaDD but I have more control over my daydreams and they don't really negatively impact my life too much, but if I'm not careful it COULD turn into MaDD. (also its cool to meet another Neuronarrator )
And bro you have so many terms I don't lol. What's a neuronarrator? |
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Post by cinderpeach on Dec 5, 2020 17:38:22 GMT
It's like MaDD but I have more control over my daydreams and they don't really negatively impact my life too much, but if I'm not careful it COULD turn into MaDD. (also its cool to meet another Neuronarrator )
And bro you have so many terms I don't lol. What's a neuronarrator?Well, as along as your daydreams dont stop you doing things irl (i.e like you can stop daydreaming for a sec to do homework, hang out with fam/friends, or do laundry and then go back later to continue) then its just Immersive Daydream there are alot of ID'er who pace, acted out, and have whole convos and stuff. Neuronarrator used to be the same as Immersive Daydreamer but now its used as an umbrella term for both MaDD and ID peeps in general Here's a blog that explains it better than I could ( link, you might need to highlight the text since its kind of hard to read otherwise) |
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Post by xxfalloutboisxx on Dec 5, 2020 18:53:07 GMT
I can control just about everything in my daydreams but I also act them out like I look around and talk to the people even though they're not there. It's really difficult to describe but I've done it for 2 years and a few months now.
And bro you have so many terms I don't lol. What's a neuronarrator? Well, as along as your daydreams dont stop you doing things irl (i.e like you can stop daydreaming for a sec to do homework, hang out with fam/friends, or do laundry and then go back later to continue) then its just Immersive Daydream there are alot of ID'er who pace, acted out, and have whole convos and stuff. Neuronarrator used to be the same as Immersive Daydreamer but now its used as an umbrella term for both MaDD and ID peeps in general Here's a blog that explains it better than I could ( link, you might need to highlight the text since its kind of hard to read otherwise)
Thank you so much for telling me about this stuff tho!! I really don't know a lot about all this because I thought I was just crazy lol. |
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Post by cinderpeach on Dec 5, 2020 19:06:20 GMT
Well, as along as your daydreams dont stop you doing things irl (i.e like you can stop daydreaming for a sec to do homework, hang out with fam/friends, or do laundry and then go back later to continue) then its just Immersive Daydream there are alot of ID'er who pace, acted out, and have whole convos and stuff. Neuronarrator used to be the same as Immersive Daydreamer but now its used as an umbrella term for both MaDD and ID peeps in general Here's a blog that explains it better than I could ( link, you might need to highlight the text since its kind of hard to read otherwise)
Thank you so much for telling me about this stuff tho!! I really don't know a lot about all this because I thought I was just crazy lol.Happy to help! I thought I was just being a weirdo too, but nice to know stuff like this has a name and community of people helping each other get through it and work with it! |
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Post by cr33pych4n on Dec 6, 2020 23:29:01 GMT
Today was the first official day!
I deleted all the apps off my phone the night before, but today was my first time in ages that I went a full day without it. It helped that I had plans anyway, but it was so nice! My brother and I went to a restaurant, then to the cinema (social distancing of course). We were also the only ones in the cinema, so it felt really trippy!
And my phone? Still in my bedside drawer. When we got home, we just hung out with and played with my cat. It sounds really dramatic, but it feels so good to just disconnect.
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Post by Xx mia xX on Dec 7, 2020 0:47:30 GMT
Today was the first official day! I deleted all the apps off my phone the night before, but today was my first time in ages that I went a full day without it. It helped that I had plans anyway, but it was so nice! My brother and I went to a restaurant, then to the cinema (social distancing of course). We were also the only ones in the cinema, so it felt really trippy! And my phone? Still in my bedside drawer. When we got home, we just hung out with and played with my cat. It sounds really dramatic, but it feels so good to just disconnect. wow congrats that is so exciting!! I also logged out of instagram and other apps that i waste a lot of time on today too gonna try to clear my head for a little bit and only check for YC updates, not spending time on it! proud of u and hope u stick with it |
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Post by cr33pych4n on Dec 7, 2020 13:24:42 GMT
Today was the first official day! I deleted all the apps off my phone the night before, but today was my first time in ages that I went a full day without it. It helped that I had plans anyway, but it was so nice! My brother and I went to a restaurant, then to the cinema (social distancing of course). We were also the only ones in the cinema, so it felt really trippy! And my phone? Still in my bedside drawer. When we got home, we just hung out with and played with my cat. It sounds really dramatic, but it feels so good to just disconnect. wow congrats that is so exciting!! I also logged out of instagram and other apps that i waste a lot of time on today too  gonna try to clear my head for a little bit and only check for YC updates, not spending time on it! proud of u and hope u stick with it I hope you stick with it too! Thank you <3 |
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Post by angelbaby444 on Dec 7, 2020 16:14:18 GMT
This post was really eye-opening to read because I realized that who I am now is a completely different person because of social media. I think back to when I was younger and I could go through multiple books a week, I spent more time outside, I liked to do art projects, even if I was bad at it. I would write all kids of stories and poems. It's depleted my creativity, and on the off chance I feel inspired to create something, there's a billion people to compare my work to.
It's also kinda messed up because I just finished college studying PR/communications, which is SO full of social media management it's insane. I feel like for my future career I have to have strong, active social media profiles, or else I won't be taken seriously. I feel like I can't escape it.
I'm also just blatantly addicted to my phone, whether it's social media, youtube, online shopping, etc., I'm always on it. My screen time makes me so depressed sometimes because I'll average like 7-9 hours a day. THAT'S SO STUPID. Why am I spending so much time on this stupid little device?? But I can't stop. I feel soooo bored if I'm not on my phone. I don't have the attention span to read or write. It's a pandemic so I can't travel to all the places I would like to. All my friends are on social media and I want to stay connected with them. I feel trapped.
I don't know what to do at this point lol. Sometimes I wish I was a teen/young adult before all of this happened. I wonder how different I would be.
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gonna try to clear my head for a little bit and only check for YC updates, not spending time on it! proud of u and hope u stick with it 
